Find A Way Out

… I don’t know somehow recently I just felt very depressed, and insomnia became the norm, lasting for almost a whole week, regardless of how exhausted I was, sleep just eluded me, which really drove me mad.

This afternoon, I surprisingly fell asleep and I dreamt about my families, they’re so affectionate, warm, and I felt an sense of release against those negative thoughts… All of a sudden, I seemed to find a way out…


Today in library I met a girl who sat right beside me, in a way, I found her very like our high school monitor Tang Jin, a bubbly girl who loves to laugh, industrious, sweet, passionate, open & straightforward, and earnest. Anyway, she is a girl full of charisma. And she had done too much for us in obscurity, attempting to make our class best. I think we all owe her a huge thanks, so I just wanna say “YOU ARE AWESOME” to our greatest monitor as an interpretation of our heartfelt appreciation for everything she had paid out as well as our tremendous fondness to such a lovable leader.

I don’t know whether she’ll kill me if I post a cute picture of her… (I’d rather die then?)

call me bubbly?

Planning To See Ania

It is so exciting that I’m so gonna see my lovely, sweet friend Ania next weekend, though, which have been planned since last parting in July. That night, when she was about to leave for Chaoyang Campus the next day, is still vividly remembered in my mind. She looked like a million dollars that night, wearing an elegant long dress, with her hair loose, and applying a pink lipstick which was my first time seeing her putting on a lipstick, absolutely stunning!! And we find a terrific restaurant by chance while walking along the streets aimlessly, talking and facing the blowing breeze leisurely. At dinner, we had fish with hot chili oil which, by the way, was really delicious. … Anyway, it was a wonderful night.

Alright, now let’s switch to another interesting topic regarding her birthday that seems to remain a bit of mysterious to me. When I first added her QQ contact, her QQ profile said her birthday is November 22 (or Nov 23?>﹏< Jesus, forgive my goddamn terrible memory (embarrassed?). I sincerely apologize here!). Yet, it changed for several times and when I tried to ask about her birthday, she was a little coy about it, maybe because she didn’t want to bother people. Or whatever. I understand, yeah, it’s not that matter actually. What matters is how you make of every day you live. So, let me just assume her birthday is Nov 22 (next Friday), and I’ve prepared a special gift-a pigeon. Well, it should be a turtle dove, the idea of which was inspired by Home Alone Ⅱ, see a short clip here. As you shall see from this clip, that turtle doves are a symbol of friendship and love, which is of tremendous symbolic significance. Additionally, they are super cute!

Looking forward to seeing my dearest friend…

For Ania

Anything’s Better Than Nothing

This is a boring & decadent Saturday, watching movies. Time was killed by some trivial stuff , leaving an emptiness deep in my heart. Regret, fear, …

Late in the night, I just suddenly recalled a high school girl, whose smile is so brilliant & innocent, cheering people up, and who sent me a pretty flower. Thanks her a lot! She is gonna take the college entrance examination of 2020 and wish her good luck. Best wishes.

Start My Writing

So, I finally initiate this project-an attempt to record my daily life, note down something meaningful & interesting, as well as save my goddamn poor capability of writing. Well, let’s start.

Alright, let me start it from my best female friend Ania(●ˇ∀ˇ●), a beautiful and cute girl who’s a ray of sunshine, funny, caring, and always being bubbly. And her smile is devastating, maybe the sweetest one I’ve ever seen in real life. I can’t tell, it must have some kind of magic power so that I would, somehow, immediately feel an inner happiness & peace whenever I see her smile, regardless of how blue I was feeling. Unbelievable, right? She’s just that amazing!

I always associate her with my favorite character Rachel Green (one of the six main roles in Friends), maybe because their smiles have something in common but I can’t tell in words. By the way, I’m a huge fan of Friends. They guys totally rock!!

Wonderful Friends
Stunning Rachel